it was a happy day.
started off with having mac breakfast.
i jus simply loveeee mac breakfast!
but the bad part is, i've gotta wake up super duper early. *yawns*

aft breakfast, headed home.
had a good rest before started cleaning up my rm.
thanks alot my 'maid'.

after that, went to Long House for dinner.
duckie rice followed by Thomson Prata.
*woohoo* ate till i could barely walk!
my stomach almost burst!

aft that, headed home.
i jus love spending time with u.
u + good food makes ele happy.
been having lotsa good food these couple of days since u're back frm Thailand (parklane wanton mee, rochor bean curd, geylang dim sum, crab, sushi buffet lunch, and the list goes on).
but but but! why dint i put on any weight!
this is SIMPLY not fair! =(
my goal frm now till nov, is to gain at least 5 kg!
if possible, i wan 8 kg.
but being realistic, i think 5 kg is damn difficult to even achieve.
why isit so difficult for me to put on wt.
but so easy for me to lose wt.
this is seriously so not fair =(

oh well, more good food tmr.
Brewerks, here we come.
then i wan my cheenatown char kuey tiao, parklane wanton mee again, carls' junior again, botak jones, dim sum, long house western food (as requested), and more good food pls.
anyone has any recommendations on other good food, pls let me know!
coz i needa achieve my goal. =)
till then, i'll continue drooling on my long list of to-eat food

I suddenly feel happier.
Maybe its coz of u.
Thanks for always being by my side.
Tolerating my mood swings, my irritating nature, and ME.
Haha.

Well, time spent together always seem to end so fast.
But it doesnt matter.
As long as we have quality time.
The weekends always seem to pass especially fast.
Like u said, "kuai le shi guang guo de kuai"

Some say absence makes the heart grow fonder.
I'd say, even without absence, I'm still missing u always!
Absence only makes me feel worse!
Haha.

My sweet baby is already planning what to get for me on my 21st.
Something memorable, or something that I'd use often.
Which shld I choose.
I'd say as long as its from u, I'd be happy. =)
So easily contented.
So easy to please.
U're really lucky lor!
Tsk!

I love spending all my time with u.
But somehow, I don't have all the time in the world.
I wish I got more time, u've got more time.
But, step back to reality.
We've just got to make do with whatever is given to us.
Hence, I wana study hard, get good grades, work hard, earn more $ in the meantime.

Thanks evil twinnie, for always cheering me up.
Though u're faraway at down under, but thanks for still being so concerned.
*hugs*
Miss u so much!
Take care and faster come back k.
Ur 'angelic' twinnie misses u ALOT!

Okie, need to get back to research work. =(
Feeling damn tired.
Lack of slp for the entire wk already.
But what to do.
I've gotta endure!

I'm TOTALLY excited!
There's a HIGH chance I might be able to go Curtin to get my honours.
But that is only IF I maintain my results, or do even better.
I WAN my 1st or upper 2nd class!

More happy coz I've ur support this time, and that u'd even consider joining me in Aussie to get ur bachelor, instead of staying put in the local uni or even SIM.
*yay*
This made me so happy.
Coz I still rmb that time when my mum ask if u'd like to go overseas for ur bachelor, u replied me with a straight NO.
Seemed firmed with wanting to stay put then.
But now, I know how much u love me, that's why u're even considering to come over join me in Aussie.
Thanks baby.

Still rmb that time when we quarreled for days when I wanted to go over Perth for my last sem.
And we almost even split up coz of it.
Thinking back, we've really come a long way.
I compromised then.
To stay coz of u.
Now, u're accepting and even encouraging me to complete my honours there if given a chance.
PLUS even wanting to go there study together.
This is the best plan ever.
Coz I know it'd be hard to be separated for 1 whole yr.
If we managed to get there together, I'll stay and wait for u to complete ur deg, coz u need at least 1.5 yrs to 2 yrs depending on ur course.
I'll jus work or whatsoever.
And we'll be able to come back together.
Sounds like a PERFECT plan.
A dream come true!

I'm jus so excited thinking bout it.
Totally glad.
Therefore, I MUST continue to work hard for these last 2 sems.
Continue to get my distinctions, or even H. Distinctions.
Then, I'd be a reality! *smiles*

jus as i tot the happy days are here to stay...
all the shit has to affect me again.
i jus wish everything would jus disappear and that i'd be able to get outta this asap.
coz i might jus breakdown the longer i stay.
give me some space.
i need to leave.


RUNAWAY!
ESCAPE!
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!



i'm sorry for always hurting u, coz i never meant to and i dont ever want to.
but its always those who are the closest that'd end up being the most hurt.
i'm sorry.
i love u.
thanks for always standing by me.
i'll emerge stronger one day.

i wish my depression would jus leave.
coz it seems to be affecting not only me, but hurting u too.
*sigh*

i almost tot i'd jus die of the pain.
fking eediotic cramps!
i almost fainted on my way back frm tuition ytd.
my legs went wobbly, my face was pale.
broke out in cold sweat.
i'd never experience such an intense pain before.
i swear it was the worst.
that i tot i'd prolly jus die.
luckily i managed to make it home.
but rolling ard in bed doesn't ease the pain.
took ard an hr before the pain got better...
but then it lasted till ard evening.
bad bad day.

luckily it ended before i was to head out.
21st bday party before a drinking cum soccer watching session.
epl is here again.
which means, i've gotta tag along for more soccer sessions.
bleah!
it's been a long long while since i last drank.
oh well, drinking is GOOD!

so tiring having to put up a false front.
especially to a loved one, as they'll always be able to notice every single detail.
maybe its time to stop hiding from my emotions.
its time to face it.

Its finally AUGUST!
the waiting is sure tough and long.
but since its Aug, it means the day of ur return is nearer!
YAY...

everything aside.
what i need most now, is a doc.
i'll go to the clinic latest by nxt wk.
all i wan now, is to get outta this shit.
its haunting, and eating me up mentally and physically.
frens, ele will be back soon.
be patient and wait for my return.
i wana score my distinctions, i wana enjoy my 21st...
most importantly of all... I WANA BE HAPPY!
that's my ultimate aim for the rest of ay'07!

1 wk down, 1 more wk... 7 days.
we can do it =)
though the missing gets tough, but 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'...
hence, miss me more ^_^

so many things for the 2 of us to do whn u're back.

well, pitstop, cheenatown, shopping, movies, beaching, spending time tgthr, and the list goes on...
it'll all take place during the 1 wk break u have, and the many wkends to come =)

thanks baby, for being here for me.
i'll get myself cured... soon!
as long as u're by my side, nothing is too tough.
i will emerge stronger, one day.



i'll walk outta the shadows,
back onto the place i shld belong.
hang on, be strong.
i'll be back soon my dearest, my frens.
everything's gona be alrite...

when u get calls continuously frm 4am - 5am, frm the same person...
its definately irritating and freaking pissed off
well, u stepped on my toes 1st.
i'm not gona give u face or whatsoever.
call me unreasonable, but u disrupted my beauty slp.
i jus yelled on top of my voice down at u.
fking hell!
don't u plain understand eng & chi.
get a life!!!

i hate it.
every single thing bout it.
think i'm gg crazy soon.
get me outta this shit!
i'm not as strong as i seem to be.

思念原来是这么辛苦的
好想好想你啊
快点回来
等待着您

[11 more days]

Life's miserable whn u're gone.
Faraway in Thailand.
Its only 2 days, but it seems like eternity.
Missing u every min.
11 more days.
Hope time pass faster.
Weather's so cold, i wan a cuddle.
Pls come back faster, safely!
I'll be waiting for ur return.
I miss my s.b.b
Muackz

i needa find myself back.
its terrible whn u know u're losing control of ur thoughts, ur emotions, ur mind.
shrucks.

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its gona be2 wks of agony.
the agony of separation.
1 more day to ur departure.
how am i gona survive.
i think i'm gona jus rot at home for 2 wks.

When depression strikes...
Its just too scary

when everything i do is wrong... what more can i say

what will life be w/o u?
i dont know and i cant imagine...
but if both of us are suffering, then i guess its time i'll let go

Is it over?